When you look in the mirror, what do you see? Show us a picture that reflects your self-image.

The most important thing about a mirror is that it reflects what is actually there, and it reflects YOU. What you interpret that as being? Well, that can be a delusion, can't it? I've looked in the mirror when it was smeared with powder, and that can distort everything. Once I got past all of that, I found I was really able to view myself in a more realistic manner.

When other people see me, they see blonde hair, big boobs and my famous, insured, fifty inch legs. Those are real. But I've stopped staring at my face, looking for lines or shadows. I just use the mirror as a tool to get ready.

I think it's just healthier.

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After I'm dead, I suppose that there are just three songs that I would leave behind, songs that I would want people to think about.

1. All You Need Is Love - The Beatles
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2. Be Good to Yourself - Journey
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3. My Way - Frank Sinatra
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Pretty simple, I think. But then, when you're gone, you don't want to overload it.

Chop a line now. . .
Cocaine decisions . . .
You are a person with a snow-job

Michael Bay saved my life.

True fact, that.

I was making a movie with him, and he really didn't say much to me, for a couple of weeks. Now and then, he'd yell at me for being late, or unprepared. But when we were on location in London, he finally confronted me in my trailer.

Actually...he fired me.

"You're too big a risk. I can't, and won't, have my film tainted with the death of a young actress."

This from the guy who made Armadeddon?

But being fired was enough of a shock to make me take stock of where I was going. The endless partying, the photos of me with no panties on? It was getting way out of hand. I mean, when you wake up to find pictures of you lip locking Andy Dick on the cover of Star magazine? It may be time to get a grip.

I know that I made that sound easy. But really, for me, it kind of was. I guess maybe I wasn't chemically addicted, like some people are. I think I was just emotionally addicted, using coke, meth and booze to fill an empty space. But when I decided I had had enough, then I put it down and walked away. Okay, I walked away into rehab, because the judge said I had to, or go back to jail. Still, I don't physically crave the drugs.

This would be a better story if Steven Spielburg had saved my life, but that's the way it goes. I never was the true A-List kind of girl. I was the perpetual A minus to a B plus. Now? I'm a "whatever happened to..." question on a game show. I suppose that's better than the obits, or holding up a video store with a bb gun.

Cocaine decisions...hmmm...I just wish I had all the money back that I spent on blow. Now that would be impressive.

Micki Finn
Original Character

Things I am thankful for:

1. My parents. Even thought they divorced six years ago, they are still together in the love they have for me. My folks put up with all of my diva star brattiness, my drugging, my boozing and all of the embarrassing things I did. They came and bailed me out of jail, and they supported me as I got clean and quit the business. I've always been loved, in the best way they knew how, and while they didn't do things perfectly during my Hollywood years, they still always did the very best they could.

2. My brains. I'm glad I didn't fry out the brain cells I had with the drugs and the booze. People might think I'm a dumb blonde, but I know better, and I feel lucky to be able to use my head in a smart manner.

3. Paul Peterson. He's an actor, from long ago, who fought to create laws protecting child actors from exploitation. Thanks to him, I still have a lot of the money I made as a kid.

4. Numbers. What can I say? For all the hair and boobs and cheekbones that everyone thinks is important, I'm still a real math geek at heart. I love the magic you can create with numbers. In a way, doing a company or a person's books are like being a doctor, only examining their fiscal health. I absolutely love being able to find the little things that can save money or strengthen their financial future. I know people can't believe that math can be that fascinating, but it really can be.

5. Health. I really wrecked myself for about ten years, so I'm lucky that I am healthy and sane.

6. Home. I own a home. That's great, because I have a place I can call my very own. I hate living out of hotels.

7. My two real friends. Randy and Mo are the two people who have always stuck by me, but who always told me the truth. They never rode the fame train. I'm so lucky to have them.